poem of the day ,

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b o y ,
I’m sorry . If i said
“ i’m not ready to accepting your loves. ”

“ i’m not ready to make a relationship with you. ”

Or even ,

“ i want to focus on my career. ”

There’s many people say ,
“ you should have a bf ! ”

“ you should try to make a relationship. Or you can’t understand what boy’s thoughts. ”

“ c’mon grown up! You’re a woman !”

But , i can’t and i’m so sorry .
Because ,

l o v e
i s a
f e e l i n g .
n o t  a
d e c i s i o n .

— spa . // quirkyalone

#breakingandhealing

poems of the day ,

hello ! happy fasting guys . welcome ” a g a i n ” to my blog . i’m going to show you some my new poems . so , hope you enjoy it and don’t forget to comment bellow 🙂

1. sometimes , you just can be secret admirer for your crush. you know , girl can’t do anything except ” w a i t i n g ” for the boy asks her for …

2. we need thankfull of what we have right now . this girl , just saw her friend isn’t lucky as her . but , like right now she’s just complaining about her life . about friends , college’s things , even another problems . but , the she realized how lucky her life right now .

3. when you feel  guilty . she’s really really hates feeling guilty . but , the problem is , that become a problem for her . her friends , called ‘ l e b a y ” and that’s not good . from her deep heart she really meant it to say sorry , but her friends like gettin’ mad to her . honestly , this is crazy when you want to say sorry and your friend gettin’ angry because of you .

4. you need to listen what other people think about you . i don’t know , some people wont listen what other people opinion or thought about her. she just , think or do about what she want. sometimes , we need to listen and think about other people opinion .

so , what poetic words can describe her feeling ? check this out ! 😉

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Advice for High Schoolers

just found this , some advice for high schoolers . hope you’ll enjoy it 😀 

“1. your middle school best friend, the one you share all your laughs with and can’t imagine not being friends with, will only be a familiar face that you’ll share a smile with across the room during high school graduation

2. popularity doesn’t matter. at all. be nice to everyone, don’t be stuck up in who you talk to, stay down to earth. high school isn’t just about climbing to the top and building contacts. one day you’re going to look back and wonder who your true friends were and what motives others had in gaining your friendship. take the time to get to know those who you normally wouldn’t, and you’ll be very surprised

3. the loneliness you feel right now is not permanent. there will be a moment, maybe months or years from now, where you will feel this overwhelming warmness, and you will look around at the people surrounding you and think, hey maybe all that sadness and loneliness was worth getting to this point. and you will smile and everything will be ok

4. don’t get sucked into the “I’m too cool to study” phase. stop glorifying netflix, going to sleep late, and barely getting your work done. find your motivation and don’t let anyone hold you back. there will be kids at school who will love to brag “I didn’t study for this test” and “oh dude I stayed up till 1am last night.” I promise that doesn’t make them cool or bad ass. in fact, most people who claim they haven’t cracked a book open, have actually studied more than you think. hold your own, be productive. you don’t want to look back on a test, a quarter, a semester, a year and think “damn, I wish I had done more.” give it your all and you will reap the benefits

5. don’t lose your spontaneity — don’t get sucked into the same rigid routine. regularity is great but you can’t lose your spark. it will crush you, years down the line, when you realize you’ve forgotten what it’s like to do something without overly planning it, without worrying about homework, without a million other items on your to-do list creeping into the back of your mind

6. when you’re having a shitty night, just go to sleep. seriously turn your phone off, close the computer, and get into bed. I promise that is the only solution.

7. when someone invites you to plans, always say yes. even if you’re exhausted, curled up watching a movie in pajamas. even if you feel like you want some alone time, or if you don’t feel 100 percent comfortable in the social situation (not in a dangerous way but a meeting new people way) — say yes. you won’t regret the experiences.

8. make yourself painfully aware of the compartmentalized characteristics and cookie-cutter personas you put on and that others put on. be conscious of the characters the media has ingrained in our society, and remind yourself that being the “cool girl” doesn’t mean drinking beer and eating burgers and letting guys step all over you so you can seem chill. reading and writing doesn’t make you “nerdy” just like playing sports doesn’t make you cool. these are associations we have been taught by movie scripts and novels. you don’t have to be one thing or the other — you can wake up early one morning, make yourself a smoothie, and be that “yoga” girl. then the next day you can stay out all night and live recklessly. you don’t have to feel like you need to fit into a persona

9. not everyone will like you, and that’s okay. stop trying to please everyone — it’s impossible. radiate confidence — even if it’s fake confidence, eventually it will become real. once you can do this, you will be untouchable

10. it’s not weird to go places alone — you don’t always need to find a friend to enjoy yourself. go for a walk, a bike ride. read at a coffee shop, take yourself out to lunch, drive somewhere interesting. don’t spend your whole day in a big ole box — you are alive, you are full of life and energy and so much potential. use it, move around, feel restless and don’t settle for staying idle”

—s-un-rise

poem of the day ,

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hi! whatsup ?

sorry for being inactive because college things. but, i today i want to share to you about my thought . it’s all about the girl that had really really bad day, bad friends or you can called ” f a k e  f r i e n d s ” , and her problem gettin’ bigger and bigger.

1. not all your friends are the best. in this case , this girl can’t make many friends. so she just have like 3 or 4 friends. but , lately they just getting away from her. and  she doesn’t why.

2. there’s bad day or good day.

but, she also had bad day or we can called bad week. family problems , college things , even the lover one . but, she can just discuss to the wind . because , that nobody will hear or understand her feeling. she just pretending to be another side of the girl { happy one and sad one } .

So , can she survive ? So, check it out and hope you enjoy it ! 😉

 

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about me ,

Hello!

I’m Syafira , a 18 year-old Indonesian lady who loves all about history, monochrome things, and currently undertaking a Management at Widyatama University Bandung. I sometimes made some poems, i want to share my thoughts to everyone.

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I am not the person who easily can made some friends. Actually, i’m not kind of girl who have a lot of friends. Honestly, i’m an introvert. Did you feel like you need to be alone, but wont feel lonely? Did you feel like uncomfortable infront bunch of people? Did you feel anyone think that you’re shy or ask “why you’re so quiet?” ? Or, Did you feel like you have a million thought in your head, but you can’t share it to anyone ? I guess, you can feel what i’m feeling.

Fashion is important for me. For me, fashion is important for many reasons, including being a form of personal identity. Fashion lets people express style and personality. Fashion also enables people to display personality and personal preferences. So, many people judging someone from how they look for the first time they met.

I love made poems. For me, poem is just like expressed my thoughts that i can’t shared it to anyone before. From poem, i can shared condition of my feelings, or someone experience that might useful for people.

My Playlist

Hello !  

Sorry for being inactive for a while, I just had mid test so ..

Now, I’d like to share like my playlist (sad songs actually). Usually,  when I had bad day I always hear this this songs like thousand times. So here they’re !!

1. Birdy – Words as weapons

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I think,  this song is about breaks off hurting, cutting off all emotion from the relationship.

A boyfriend keeps hurting and using his girl.

The meaning from lyrics is so deep. So, if you had someone hurts you, you can listen this song and you’ll get emotional and start crying (maybe?)

Listen here xx

2. Melanie Martinez – Mrs. Potato Head

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This song is, teach me to be yourself, be confident by who you are.

A girl who is beautiful however extremely insecure, uses plastic surgery to change her face. With a potato head, you can take off the facial features and change it. This represents that with plastic surgery, they “take” off their face and change it. Melanie wants to show that all women are beautiful and don’t need plastic surgery to be beautiful. Specific lines show that woman think that they wont be loved if they’re”unattractive” so they change to be loved.

Listen here xx

3. Lana del rey – Dark Paradise

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Well, this song is about the girl who can’t move on with her death boyfriend. She was devastated, and it may have been months or even years since his passing and she hasnt moved on, when her friends keep pushing her to do so.

Sometimes she has the feeling that when she does leave earth to heaven that he wont be waiting on her. Every night she dreams of him and its a dark paradise because even though she loves him so much she knows it just a dream, and when she wakes up, she knows he wont be there.

The lyrics , also made me cry ! trust me you should listen this one and close your eyes try to be her.

Listen here xx

4. Lorde – Liability

17077435_215844885557762_2076647443876806656_nThis sad song is about, her relationship getting hard and she added the extra fuel to that.

So now he regrets that he had played in any part of her life. No matter who departs from your life, you will always have yourself. So she says it’s important to love yourself no matter what.The singer says it is not easy pleasing her and that she is one with a flair. I think this songs is about break up from relationship.

Listen Here xx

5. Clean Bandit feat. Sean Paul & Anne-marrie – Rockabye

Clean_Bandit_-_Rockabye_(feat._Sean_Paul_&_Anne-Marie)Well, last this song isn’t like the other songs.

This song , tell a love letter to everything single mothers do for their children. They work extremely hard to protect their children and give them a good life. Even when things get tough, they never give up on their kids.

Listen here xx

Most of my playlist are the sad songs. I don’t know am i melancholist ? haha

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it’s my fault ,

Have you ever wondered what happened to the leaves that got carried away by the wind? ” I asked.

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“They mostly would decompose of course. Why?” He raised his eyebrows.

“I don’t know. What if they travel to the other side of the world? What if, they endure everything and reach the furthest just before they actually decayed?”

“Well, maybe. The probability would be small though. I don’t think the time would be enough for leaves to go that far.”

I stared at him while he’s throwing the pebbles into the stream. He looked longingly into the distance and I chuckled.

“What?” He asked.

“It’s just that I hope feeling goes away as easy as leaves decomposing. I think it will be a better thing if feeling that does not mean to live a long life can decompose after minutes of surfacing. Just you imagine. If my feelings had died sooner, at this freaking moment, I would not look at you and hoped you like me instead of someone else. If my feeling had gone sooner, I would not be able to reach the highest expectation because you would not be able to carry it away to wherever you want. It will be less painful. Don’t you think so?”

He froze. Then his head slowly turned and his eyes found mine.

He didn’t need to utter a single word.

Because his eyes have sent me the deepest apology and the only thing I could do was holding back my tears and gave him a smile. I opened my mouth,

“It’s okay. It’s not your fault you can’t fall in love with me.”

— I’m sorry I got carried too far away by your wind. (it’s my fault)

[Source: Tacenda] you ever wondered what happened to the leaves that got carried away by the wind?” I asked.

“They mostly would decompose of course. Why?” He raised his eyebrows.

“I don’t know. What if they travel to the other side of the world? What if, they endure everything and reach the furthest just before they actually decayed?”

“Well, maybe. The probability would be small though. I don’t think the time would be enough for leaves to go that far.”

I stared at him while he’s throwing the pebbles into the stream. He looked longingly into the distance and I chuckled.

“What?” He asked.

“It’s just that I hope feeling goes away as easy as leaves decomposing. I think it will be a better thing if feeling that does not mean to live a long life can decompose after minutes of surfacing. Just you imagine. If my feelings had died sooner, at this freaking moment, I would not look at you and hoped you like me instead of someone else. If my feeling had gone sooner, I would not be able to reach the highest expectation because you would not be able to carry it away to wherever you want. It will be less painful. Don’t you think so?”

He froze. Then his head slowly turned and his eyes found mine.

He didn’t need to utter a single word.

Because his eyes have sent me the deepest apology and the only thing I could do was holding back my tears and gave him a smile. I opened my mouth,

“It’s okay. It’s not your fault you can’t fall in love with me.”

— I’m sorry I got carried too far away by your wind. (it’s my fault)

[Source: Tacenda]

KULIAH MANAJEMEN DI UNIVERSITAS WIDYATAMA: My Experience and My Daily Activities.

10 Universitas Terbaik dan Terpopuler di Bandung - 4muda.com
Halooo!! Saat ini, saya akan menceritakan keseharian gimana sih kuliah di Universitas Widyatama dan Apa aja kesehariannya.

Kuliah di Universitas Widyatama atau biasa disingkat Utama ga bakal bosen. Pas awal masuk, pasti kan ada program pengenalan mahasiswa. Di Utama, mahasiswa/i baru sewaktu awal masuk, kita duduk manis di GSG Utama dan di beri pengenalan dan pengaraha mengenai sistem perkuliahan, ujian, cara peminjaman buku, pembayaran kuliah, dan lain-lain. Kita juga ga perlu takut dimarah-marahin sama kaka tingkat. Kaka – kaka tingkat disana, baik-baik dan ramah-ramah, kalau yang biasa kita dapat kesan kating yang wajahnya garang dan judes , di Utama malah sebaliknya. Digerbang pintu utama kita disambut dengan senyuman manis pata kating yang menjadi pantia Program Pengenalan Universitas (PPU). Siangnya, setelah kita duduk di GSG mendengarkan para pembicara, kita diberi makan siang pokonya program pengenalan Universitas Widyatama SERU BANGET! Masuk pada bagian keseharian kuliah sebagai anak Manajemen. Biasanya hari pertama masih perkenalan dengan para dosen-dosen yang baik dan ramah. Jangan salah lho, banyak dosen dari Universitas Widyatama adalah sebagai dosen tetap dari suatu Universitas Negeri (PTN) jadi kita pun sebagai mahasiswa/i Utama, diajar oleh dosen yang sama dengan ilmu yang sama oleh para dosen PTN. Di Utama juga, sarananya yang sangat bagus. Dari mulai parkiran yang luas, perpustakaan yang buku-bukunya kumplit, kelas yang nyaman dan yang penting wifinya yang cepat!

Universitas Widyatama khususnya jurusan Manajemen S-1 sudah mendapat akreditasi A dari Ban-pt, juga sudah masuk ranking ke 49 universitas terbaik di Indonesia versi webometrics dari rangking web of universities (info: http://www.webometrics.info/en/Asia/Indonesia%20).

Untuk sistem pembelajaran sehari-harinya yang fun dan tidak monoton, membuat mahasiswa/inya jarang ada yang bosan. Di Utama juga, terdapat berbagai macam UKM atau biasa anak sekolahan kenal dengan ekstrakulikuler. Dari mulai bidang kesenian, akademik, sampai bisnis pun ada. Jadi para mahasiswa/inya dapat menyalurkan hobinya dengan baik.

Also you should check this video!

Dear my self ,

“Thank you for being who you are.”

I’m really really proud of you. Lately , you had really bad days. But , you can stepped forward, wake up from your comfort zone and smile to people . I know , maybe your stress is stressed . But , ya need to control it.
For being so strong in coping with your problems and trying to solve them all on your own. No one realises what things you have been through. Not even those people who meet you everyday.  But you should know , that i always know what’s your feeling , what’s your thoughts.

For being staying be who you are . Many people , changed became a stranger. But look at you! You just a girl that never fall in love , i mean you are a woman right now! You are 18 and guess what? You still alive when other people still arguing with their bf. The point is you can live without a boy in your life. Look at you! You are so independent woman, so be proud of you.

For being kind and friendly to other people around you that you always want to please them and give so much effort to make them happy, until you forget to make yourself happy, even i know you realized that all your life, you have been lonely. Nobody has ever been there for you For being so mature that you can keep smiling, laughing, and even make jokes of your own problems.

And after all, i thank you for not giving up. I thank you for always trying to be a better person. I thank you for not changing yourself into someone you are not. I thank you for all the effort to make me stay alive.

Hey! please visit my tumblr and this “about me” article !